My Jericho, a follow up
I was in the hospital last weekend and in between trying to get comfortable and catch some sleep I reflected back on my post about Joshua and the walls of Jericho and I felt God's spirit leading me into thoughts about what my Jericho was. It seemed to come to me that my Jericho is not cancer as some might think. As much as I would like to think so and knock it's walls down (and we will) Cancer has become the motivation or the energy for me to face some of my walls and knock them down.
Wall 1. My eyes were closed to just how wonderful my wife Kaye is and how she is the absolute best care giver, organizer and soulmate anyone could ask for. She works tirelessly to see that I am cared for and that I am not wanting for anything. This is something I have taken for granted and have now realized what a tremendous support she is!
Wall 2. I have overcome a childhood fear of needles. As a young child I developed a fear of needles and shots. This carried through my adult life and often times would inhibit me from going to the dentist and to see a doctor as we all should do. No need to fear now, Since August 13, 2005 I have been poked and prodded enough to develope an indifference to the prick of a needle or shot.
Wall 3. My eyes and ears have been opened to the love and prayers and well wishes of more people than I can name. Friends, family, friends of friends, church members, Churches I don't even know, neighbors, business associates, collegues, peers in my industry, customers I call on all have shown me a great deal of love and concern and sincere desire to know how I am doing. I never put much thought into human compassion and how it could be expressed in such an outpouring. I am humbled by all this.
Wall 4. My feeling of invincebility. When I was healthy I was too abusive to my body and my immune system. As with most people you tend to take your health for granted and you run your body and its systems too hard. You begin to believe that sicknesses are in other people and that you are above getting sick. It can happen. It did to me. When I am completely healthy again, I will not overextend my self again. Rest, diet, exercise, peace, laughter all will play a part in my life.
Wall 5. I am sure there is yet another wall for me to knock down when it is time.
Wall 1. My eyes were closed to just how wonderful my wife Kaye is and how she is the absolute best care giver, organizer and soulmate anyone could ask for. She works tirelessly to see that I am cared for and that I am not wanting for anything. This is something I have taken for granted and have now realized what a tremendous support she is!
Wall 2. I have overcome a childhood fear of needles. As a young child I developed a fear of needles and shots. This carried through my adult life and often times would inhibit me from going to the dentist and to see a doctor as we all should do. No need to fear now, Since August 13, 2005 I have been poked and prodded enough to develope an indifference to the prick of a needle or shot.
Wall 3. My eyes and ears have been opened to the love and prayers and well wishes of more people than I can name. Friends, family, friends of friends, church members, Churches I don't even know, neighbors, business associates, collegues, peers in my industry, customers I call on all have shown me a great deal of love and concern and sincere desire to know how I am doing. I never put much thought into human compassion and how it could be expressed in such an outpouring. I am humbled by all this.
Wall 4. My feeling of invincebility. When I was healthy I was too abusive to my body and my immune system. As with most people you tend to take your health for granted and you run your body and its systems too hard. You begin to believe that sicknesses are in other people and that you are above getting sick. It can happen. It did to me. When I am completely healthy again, I will not overextend my self again. Rest, diet, exercise, peace, laughter all will play a part in my life.
Wall 5. I am sure there is yet another wall for me to knock down when it is time.
posted by Tim | Thursday, June 15, 2006
1 Comments:
i really feeling that jericho thing. Mr tim keep your head up and ill call you later ok.
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